I got really fed up with a coumity I was trying hard to be in on discord ive been distracetd by that and some ppl I met there that I let DM me Ive just been letting myself get stressed out about it and ive let myself waste hours of my time trying to fit in with ppl that were never on the same page as me they kept saying "I belonged there" and I wasant feeling it and I was also just making an ass of myself Im so iresponsibale with my life so much time was wasted that I could have been using to catch up on school or my website and insted I Was just letting my self get pissed off and frustrated every day with that stupid fucking server Im so tired I just want to be done with all this stuff and I Want to move on already this was my second time leaving and it will prob be my last bc I dont know if I Can go back now since the mods will probably be privy to me by this point and they will prob be expecting another out-burst from me if I go back so I might not get let in a third time I shouldent go back anyways the important thing about a website is that everyone can see it so that hopefully some day someone who actually has stuff in common with you will try and talk and mabey be friends with you and I guess I found friends there but I didint hit it off that well with most of them its definitley olny going to get harder for me the older I get I know that for sure im having less resitance now im really not kepping my emotions to myself anymore and its starting to really mess stuff up if it starts dipping into my IRL life then I definitely know im screwd I just gotta hope ill have better contorl than that